*all the fire drains out of killua at bisky’s words, leaving his heart hollow and broken. his dull gaze moves from bisky’s judgemental glare to alluka’s tearful face and he shudders with remorse.*

i… never thought she’d go without me…

*he feels incredibly helpless, wishing he could have at least been the one who killed the monster to make up for leaving his sister unguarded. but apparently he wouldn’t have been able to do that anyway, not without nen. he couldn’t save gon from it, and he couldn’t save alluka from it either.*

…i really am no use to anyone.

*slowly he trudges over to alluka and wraps his arms around her shaking shoulders, despondent.*