endless airship, a hunter x hunter dressing room

[You're both girls, anyway. It was true, but Alluka had a hard time revolting against the lack of self worth the Zoldycks imbued in her. She knew she wasn't the same as other girls, and it all boiled down to her parts.. Sometimes, she earnestly felt like a boy and a monster. At least Killua fully understood, or at least she assumed he still did.]

I wish I had the choice..I'm so embarrassed. I'm surprised she still cuddled me afterward, I just want to disappear..