kalluto's cabin (SFW)
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*after alluka and nanika's ill-fated birthday party has passed, killua leaves her to sleep off her indigestion and sets off down the hall. there's dread in his uneasy heart, a suspicion that there's something his sisters have been keeping from him all this time. not ready yet to confront them about it, he shows up instead at his brother's door with dark circles under his eyes and unkept hair, haggard from all he's been through over the past days and nights. as soon as kalluto answers it, he questions:*
what do you know about the other alluka?
what do you know about the other alluka?
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Date: 2023-12-01 06:39 am (UTC)There were a few alternatives, none of which really amounted to the type of freedom that Killua seemed to want for their sister. Would making people use an alias around her work? The family never tested-
A strange word interrupted Kalluto's train of thought, and with that came a sudden disdain for stumbling, again into the family's line of thinking. People would need to die to know whether that worked.*
That word... Nanika... why are you using it like a name?
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Date: 2023-12-01 06:18 pm (UTC)that's... what she calls her. the other alluka.
*he looks up again at his brother, jaw clenching.*
our other sister.
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Date: 2023-12-02 04:20 am (UTC)*He lets the word work around his tongue, the sound taking on a completely new meaning as a name. It seemed odd to name something that just appeared to make requests and grant wishes, unless...*
"Can you talk to her? Nanika, I mean."
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Date: 2023-12-02 05:26 am (UTC)most of the time, she's asleep. but sometimes she'll come out if i ask her to.
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Date: 2023-12-05 06:59 am (UTC)Distantly, blankly, he noted the absence of any of the... strange drives... that had permeated this sort of touch in the garden, and in the plastic world.
He spoke against Killua's skull, finding his lips and face nestled into the floof adorning it, suddenly craving the stimulation. It helped, since he was trying to wrap his mind around the concept of the other Alluka - of Nanika, not 'nanika' - having a distinct personality.*
Are you... okay, right now? You don't need to think of a plan right this second.
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Date: 2023-12-05 07:43 pm (UTC)yeah, i'm -- i mean, she healed me...
*the distant stare in his eyes suggests the opposite of his words.*
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Date: 2023-12-06 05:50 am (UTC)Then she really did... you...
*He squeezed Killua tight.*
How bad was it? Worse than the worst you've been injured on a job?
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Date: 2023-12-06 04:53 pm (UTC)well, considering i had to pull out my own organs and give them to her... yeah, it was worse. i'm just lucky she didn't specify which, or i might not have been able make the wish...
*he turns his head to look at his brother, brow creased in distress.*
do you think she would've just let me die? what would alluka do...
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Date: 2023-12-07 10:57 am (UTC)This.... no, this isn't right. She wouldn't. Anyone else but you!
My Killua stood between our sister and the family because he was so sure she would never... but if she did... then...
Was he wrong, or was there something they were both missing about his old world? Something Killua had learned after he became a Hunter, without going home first, about the two Allukas...
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Date: 2023-12-07 04:54 pm (UTC)you're right, i... i just have to talk to her.
*she must have been planning to heal him all along, right? she'd only hurt him because she knew she could fix him like before. that was the only thing that made sense... but if what kalluto's told him was true, and her power was more of a cosmic balancing than a conscious ability... could he really believe it would spare him?*
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Date: 2023-12-11 04:14 am (UTC)That might not be enough. My parents weren't right to lock them up, but we do need a plan to avoid costly wishes. One that nanika is on in, discussed with her like a person.
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Date: 2023-12-12 05:04 am (UTC)*he grips his knees again, fretfully kneading the fabric of his pants.*
i can give her anything she wants... i think i've proven that now. maybe i could be enough...
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Date: 2023-12-13 12:10 am (UTC)You have to be enough. It's not fair on you, otherwise.
*For emphasis, he softly poked where Killua had self-consciously covered himself when he talked about the requests from their sister.*
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Date: 2023-12-13 03:58 am (UTC)she ate it, you know. can you believe that? alluka got so sick...
*a brother who would sacrifice so much for her... how could she ask for more?*
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Date: 2023-12-13 05:42 am (UTC)Deep down, he felt nothing for Alluka. It was crowded out by so many other, heavier feelings over all these years. Even so, he was ashamed for it to be so clear, when Killua mentioned Alluka falling ill, not one of two anymore, but one rather than the other, the something... the Nanika.*
But...
*His arms tore through the air to squeeze around Killua again, breathing in, not even trying to hide that he wanted his brother's smell to permeate him, to cling deep to his bones and stay forever.
He knew he was confused. The dream used a recent memory of a different brother, but instead of relieving him, his eyes burned, his face tensed as he tried to hold everything back. He was mourning his real brother, trying to smother himself in someone else's.
If this thing was willing to hurt her, then...*
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Date: 2023-12-15 05:47 pm (UTC)it's alright, i'm all healed now, and she's recovering...
*he sighs, ribs pushing against the steel brace of his brother's arms.*
i just... i'd always hoped that she... if no one else, just alluka... could be spared, from all of it...
*he trails off with a mournful shudder in his voice, twisting his fingers in kalluto's locks.*
...but it's too late. she's just as stained as the rest of us...
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Date: 2023-12-15 08:37 pm (UTC)He opened his mouth, ready to yell at Killua, ask him where this was when it came to himself, his youngest sibling, but before he could speak, the memory of Killua shielding Kalluto with his body takes the air out of his lungs. He quivers, knowing from what Killua is saying, they can't both be the one needing to be comforted.
He squeezes Killua even tighter, takes in a deep breath, not sure of which is which as he speaks.*
I... I shouldn't have blamed her. She's the one affected the most by this curse. And...
*In the end, she wasn't spared, was she? He had no one to talk to about the scene from his nightmare. Things were very foggy in the last few weeks before the mirror, but that piece was so stark, so horrific. Did Illumi take it from him? Did he need it?*
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Date: 2023-12-16 05:48 pm (UTC)it's not your fault... they took her from us.
*he tightens his grip on kalluto's hair, nails pinching at his scalp as a possessive growl creeps into his tone, laced with latent anger at their parents and most of all, the brother who'd brainwashed him.*
took you from me, too.
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Date: 2023-12-30 09:16 am (UTC)He didn't know he was crying until he felt the hiccups marring the delivery of his reply.*
I'm here now. We're here. I don't... I don't wanna go again.
*So much for being the one to comfort Killua.*
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Date: 2023-12-31 03:10 am (UTC)you won't, i... i won't leave you.
*seeing how shaken he is only strengthens killua's resolve to solve things with nanika, to get her power under control so she, alluka, and kalluto can finally live happily with their big brother. he cups kalluto's trembling chin, his own teary eyes locking onto his brother's as he vows:*
i'm gonna figure this out. i promise.
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Date: 2025-03-08 10:08 am (UTC)It didn't matter. Killua already knew to be careful, and probably already feared Nanika, or he wouldn't have come to someone he still couldn't trust yet.
Kalluto deftly folded some glossy paper, silver like his brother's hair, and fashioned a bandana out of it.*
Put this on. We'll be able to talk through my ability. For if we think of anything else.
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Date: 2025-03-09 05:52 pm (UTC)do you -- uh, do you remember leaving some paper on me the first time you showed me your ability?
*he eyes the paper in his brother's hands warily, wondering if the connection is voluntary or always active, trickling his guilting moans into his brother's ears.*
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Date: 2025-03-11 05:00 am (UTC)"I don't know, big brother. Do you remember leaving it there?"
*He wore the faintest of smirks.*
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Date: 2025-03-12 01:49 am (UTC)kalluto...
*he may not have given him a straight answer to his question, but the one implied has been answered clearly. without a doubt, he heard.*
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Date: 2025-03-19 07:07 am (UTC)"Just take it. I'll show you how to fry the connection with Ten for something you don't need me to hear.
But next time you do, just look for me here."
*His smirk relaxed into an easy smile that touched his bright, expectant eyes.*
"Unless it's urgent... like before?"
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